Dear California

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Dear California, Leaving you is bittersweet. We heart you. Your beaches. Your culture. Your food. You see, the first half of our story began with you. We love the memories our family made here. We love that Azusa Pacific University is where Bryan and I met and fell in love (although I played hard-to-get for far too long). We love that …

Love you forever

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He taped the box shut and with purple sharpie wrote Ty Pogue’s above where I’d written bedroom. Inside books, drawings and nerf bullets were thrown half-hazard, as any little boy does, when feeding treasures to a cardboard mouth. He found Love You Forever and we cozied up like sardines on his bottom bunk and read aloud. As I read, I found my voice shaking. …

When Doubting is part of the Faith Process

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How does it feel to have the news out there? This is the main question we’re getting after sharing about our mid life awakening and here’s our real time response: We feel scared and relieved. We feel sad and hopeful. You see, this news of moving to Nashville wasn’t one decided overnight, but after years of inklings and listening and refusing to …

Trust Fund

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Let’s just pretend we’re speed dating and share bullet points over these fish tacos, I told my aunt. Ready. Go. Tell me EVERYTHING. She shared about her new home and the freedom she feels being in a rural space with her daughter, Annie. I’m good, she smiled. I’m good. You, she leaned forward. There’s a lot going on. Go. Bullet point lunches may be the new ticket item …

A Broken Hallelujah

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With our boys out of school for Christmas break, I’m taking advantage of time with them, with friends, with family. I’m choosing to savor this season, to bake and rest and find inspiration in the simple moments. And I’m honored to welcome everyday women with beautiful stories in the meantime so I can do just that. Today’s guest, Erin, is a tender …

Dear Reader

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The heartbeat for my debut book, Choosing REAL, birthed after losing my dad to a sudden stroke. For the first time, I caught glimpses, an understanding of how to respond to unplanned circumstances and allow them to shape my faith in tangible, real ways. Choosing REAL is a conversation. An invitation. It’s a journey of experiencing how genuine and near …

Releasing Panic and Claiming Peace

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There are three significant life moments when I declared, I’m releasing this. I’m gonna go mad trying to control every piece and that’s no way to live. Instead I’m going to hold it open and trust Your way is better than my pithy plans. Even though my plans seem like a really great idea right now. The first time I recognized my body …

How to Trust Goodness in Doubt

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What keeps you from allowing the good in? I paused and searched the ceiling for an answer. Because I’m afraid it will run out. Like air from a balloon. I’m not sure if there is enough to last. I’m not proud, but I’m realizing this is my honest response. Apparently in the deepest parts, I doubt God’s goodness will prevail or …

Dear Lonely One

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Dear Lonely One, I can’t stop thinking about you. When you shared – your big eyes brimming so brave, about how lonely you feel, about how you wish you actually had invitations to say yes or no to, about wondering where your friends are, about the confusion at why you don’t have a packed calendar- it broke my heart. And my first instinct …

When Kindness Goes Noticed

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Tanner cracked open the Jesus Calling for the day, because, I admit, we haven’t all summer. Moving on. And he read the sweetest line that stayed with me the remainder of the day: “The Garden of Eden is no more, but the garden of your heart is alive and well.” I’ve never thought of our hearts as a garden. I …